anyway...was reading HER blog and notice that she was sicl recently...didn't wan to sms her cos i dun wan create anymore trouble for her...so didn't leave her any tag in her blog oso didn't sm sher anything...jus dun wan to cause more quarrels for her...then suddenly thought of tis blog i can wish her SPEEDY RECOVERY and hope she get well soon...onlli in tis blog is the onli way we can commiuncate ba...
hope that u will get well soon nd stop spreading the virus to ur family members la...c la now mum sick le oso...all ur fault...some more ur ma ma must work and do hse work...help her out if possible k...lighten her work load then she can recover faster oso...go take more fruit and drink more water and stuff la...u nurse u shld noe beta than mi...k...
anyway after so long still can't do wat i wanted to do...forget HER and our past...jus 5 words to write in out...but it may take 5 yrs to filful it...thinking abt the past, actually we nv do anything veri special but i jus cannot finf a reason why its so difficult to forget her...maybe its jus a type of feeling ba...can't say out de feeling...
dragging and dragging for the past 3 yrs...that's wat is the result now and it jus seems veri difficult to forget everythingn now...ever if we dun call each other...we dun talk to each other..we dun c each other...we dun sms each other...the image of the gd times we had in the past still surface in my mind and it seems like the event had jus happened ytd...feeling so close yet its so far away...unreachable...sometimes i ask myself y did we break up?? y i made that sms to break up?? y u didn't say no?? y didn't we sat down and talk abt it?? y did i have to regret it???
alot of question is already unanswerable and we oso cannot realli find a prefect answer to the question anymore...wat we can do is to jus find a roughly idea/answer base on our memories... i cannot even remember much...i jus remember that i sent u the msg to break up at 6.55pm and i remembered u saying that u wanted to call mi to chat at 7pm after the drama show ends!!! 5 mins... it makes a difference...every second counts... a decision u made can cause alot of follow up side effect on another person...
i oso always ask myself...how would things go if i nv say break up??? how will things turn out to be if we have more patient for each other... how will things change if i learn how to handle things properly tt time... but wawt i can do now is jus a simple thing... REGRET... i noe i will nv forget u no matter wat happens in the future and i oso noe i had made a seriously wronged choice to give up...
sometimes the saddness is within the smile that a person put up on their faces,who will c the other side of them??? who can understand wat they are goin througH??who will spend time getting to know them more???
let mi tell u... the onli person who will stay by ur side when things realli happen is ur family...
wat i wan to say is mostly in tis song... maybe when u are free jus listen to it...maybe u wont noe wat i wan to say...but i believe u will..
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